I am so grateful you didn’t make it to this chapter in my life. You lit a fire underneath me that I so desperately needed.
You should know if I ever cared about you, I probably always will. I don’t mean that as a compliment. I’m wired that way. When you deal with a woman like me who loves hard, it isn’t because of you. It’s a choice I made. I won’t falter in who I am because you didn’t know how to handle me correctly.
Thank you for not realizing what you had while you had it and I mean that sincerely. You ignited something in me I didn’t even know existed. My fear just became a tool to ensure I would never get too comfortable again. After a lot of healing and growth, I took a leap of faith and launched the next chapter of my life. I found my purpose and it was bigger than just myself.
I wouldn’t be on this path if it wasn’t for the emptiness you left in my heart. After all this time, you know I’m a survivor and that I thrive under pressure. I had no choice but to pour an abundance of love into myself and that’s when the biggest transformation of all happened.
The thing is all of those deep conversations we had about the future weren’t just merely hopeful discussions. Remember when you used to watched my face light up as I told you about my dreams and the impact I hoped to have on the world? Well maybe 10 years from now, we can grab a cup of coffee and I can fill you in on just how beautiful the journey turned out to be. After all, you lost your chance at a front row seat.
Maybe by then you will have moved on, or maybe you will be looking for me in every single person you meet. I wish I could care but the grass is greener over here, where I chose to water it. You already knew that because I once tried to provide you with an ocean.
My personal success will be a testament of my dedication. I’m not just building a business from the ground up, I am creating a legacy.
I hope that once you see my hard work paying off, you learn from it. I tried to show you what I was capable of. You just wrote me off as a woman with big dreams and no plan. If you would have paid more attention to my work ethic, you’d know that I was fully prepared to work my ass off with or without you. You had fair warning so you shouldn’t be surprised once my success comes to fruition.
I’m sure it won’t be easy to watch my empire grow. To know that the legacy I am creating has nothing to do with you. All you had to do was be believe in me, but you were too easily distracted. It really is true; ambition cannot be taught.
There will come a day when you are forced to watch me give someone else what I hoped to give to you. I will challenge him, hold him through every hardship, and be his sanctuary when the world doesn’t make sense. You made me stronger for this person and for that I am grateful.
The comfort I will find in his arms, is the exact reason why I never belonged in yours.
I’ll spend the rest of my life learning every inch of his body, appreciating his mind, and supporting his dreams. I will raise his children to be resilient and transform our house into a home. By the time age catches up to us, we will have created enough memories to last us another lifetime.
Once you love a woman correctly, she will radiate a light that will keep you warm forever. If you weren’t so busy living for the moment, you would have seen that.
That being said, thank you for not seeing me for the woman I was destined to become. My future depended on it. And the best part? I can’t miss what never belonged to me. If you ever get the urge to reach out to me, don’t. I am no longer interested in what the past has to offer.
I am in love with the woman who stands proudly in the ashes of who she used to be.
I’m thankful for the man that didn’t see my potential. It only made my heart more valuable. I love even harder now because there isn’t a soul capable of changing the composition of my heart.
I will spend the rest of my life fighting for love because the world needs more of it. As my business continues to grow, I only hope to be a beacon of light for those in the dark and to inspire others to be authentic. You are not alone.